I may be wrong, but you sound very, very, very much like the guy that was on here a while back boasting about his 120K “salary” and “view of the Thames”. The OP wanted to know how to move out of contracting into Big4 and how much spondooly he should be demanding. That thread started with some good solid advice and quickly became a slagging match as the OP couldn’t take the heat.
Then about a month later a very similar post appeared from recent “ex-contractor” that had taken a job at Big4 only to find himself simultaneously under-utilised, under-sold and under-performing. Regular contributors took the time to provide excellent advice which once again was met by moronic levels of egomania and denial.
Now a post appears from am “ex-contractor who has recently quit BIG4” after very similar circumstances to the above.
Let’s be clear from the start.
You are an underperformer.
You are an egomaniac.
You have delusions of adequacy.
You are on a downward spiral.
In the interest of efficiency we may as well miss out the good advice and go straight to telling you what an idiot you are.
Your best option is to google “schadenfreude”. If you are really lucky you can sell enough Big Issue to raise the cash for a personality transplant.
PS. If you are not the ar$ehole from the previous posts, then do accept my sincere apology.