Oh, poor ZB, I see you still have some personal transference issues.
"<b>I</b> always lack of leadership and coherent strategy"
Now, that may be true, but it's a tough job market out there and firms are rejecting candidates for all kinds of simpler reasons in the first instance. Maybe they were just holding out for somebody with a stronger grasp of English grammar or with a high school graduation certificate.
"<b>I</b> always... let them down"
Hey, little buddy, that's not what they think. Hiring managers have to have weak candidates on the list in order to make the strong candidates look good, so you're actually helping them. You're only letting yourself down by being used in this way in every job application.
You should have an early night. We'll work on your job application technique in the morning. I still think you need to see a specialist about the transference issues though - they could <i>really</i> let you down if they come out under stress at work.